01 He Who Laughs
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02 File 13
03 Wake Up Call
04 Cult Status
05 Perfect Fit
06 Advances In Modern Technology
07 Theory Of Revolution
08 This Secret Ninja
09 Soap Box Derby
10 Aspirin Free
11 Fishbowl
12 Charles Atlas
13 Crop Tube
14 Consult My Lover
15 Take The Test
16 Two Of A Kind
17 Shatty Fatmas
18 Yurf Rendenmein
19 Cruise Control
20 Modern Epic
Who Said You Could Touch Me?
Rolling Bands
Love Is A Many Splendored Thing
No trust can be given freely, its' a valuable commodity, but obviously this
is something you've never learned. Faith is something that you put in friends,
and had I excess morals to lend, I'd let you borrow them, but my trust you haven't
earned. We've got a problem? First of all there is no "we", I'm detached
from you completely. I've got a problem. You tell lies to my friends and think
it won't get back to me. No bond can ever seem to make a stable fit in our relationship,
but one thing that never comes between us is honesty. When you have something
to say, you always seem to find a way to avoid the truth or instead, avoid me.
Straight up is how you'll see me stand, but it is never in your plans to be
straight forward, so instead, you use deceit. Now I would like to take apart
what you've been breaking from the start. I'll remain intact, I won't be broken
in defeat. No trust!
I sleep until there is no light. I'm wide awake all through the night. Dinner
may suck but I'll take a bite, I do whatever I can. My muscles stiffen through
the day. Discomfort never goes away. I feel like a garbage can. Throw me away,
I've got no use. Throw me away, I'm nothing to lose. Throw me away, I feel like
shit. I am useless. I know I know nothing at all. I'd take stand, but I know
I'd fall. I'd run head-down into a wall and watch my blood run faster. Girls
laugh and pass me on the street. I spook out everyone I meet. I've got pink
toenails on my feet, I'm such a fucking master. I never seem to feel well. I
always seem to look like hell. It seems like everyone can tell my mind is going
numb. My mom thinks I wear women's clothes. I get dogged on at all the shows.
It seems that everybody knows I look like a fucking bum.
If I had my way I'd wish them all away, but I can't find the magic inside of
me. I'll give my best, 'cause I can give no more, but your problems aren't solved
so easily. I'm not someone that you should run to. I've been, often, as broken
as you, more often than you'd like me to. If I could heal all the pain that
you feel, I'd gladly cure all that ails you inside. Unfortunately, I have no
degree and I can not anesthetize. I wish that I could help you. I can't even
help myself. It seems you need a saving grace and a savior's something I'm not.
I'll turn you on and switch you right off. I'll make sure you like what you
see. Forget all that you once believed. Now you will believe in me. Do you believe
you make the choice, decide what you hold most dear? In all opinions that you
voice, it's my voice that they all hear. I'll take you ideas and your values,
I'll make you turn them all around. I'll break your individuality, I'll take
you down. I'll seal shut your open eyes. I'll give you a taste on the bland.
Intoxicate you, take me in. You'll never feel the touch of my hand. I'll turn
you on and switch you right off. I'll soothe your troubled mind. You'll never
have to think again, it's just a matter of lost time.
What was it I was thinking, or was I even thinking at all? When I think of what
I thought back then, then I'm ashamed; and I'm appalled that I gave up all I
was so easily. Living your life is not for me. I won't be sedated, I won't be
sedated! Give me a little taste and I know I won't want more. I won't be sedated,
stability is overrated. Give me the disorder I adore. I can't be a part, be
a part, I can't be a part. I can't be a part, be a part of your modern world.
I've gotta be apart, be apart, I've gotta be apart. I've gotta be apart. I can't
grasp the values that you hold. What was it you were thinking, or were you even
thinking at all? When I think of what you thought of me, I take offense; and
I'm appalled that you could discount all I love so easily. Living your life
is not for me.
Every night I walk the streets, awake while everyone else sleeps. I'm giving
unease to anyone I meet. My generosity can never runout, because I give a gift
from what's within myself. No hope at all. Take nothing from nothing and you'll
have nothing left. I can't recall. I can't recall a moment in my life when life
was at it's best. Everyone avoids my stare and no one cares to ever dare to
look into my eyes of what they most fear. And they're taught to fear, to fear
no evil. And they know no fear, they've learned to love themselves. Forever
unlucky, 'cause I'll own tomorrow. Forever unwanted, outcast today. I'm not
misled, I've got no one to follow. Everywhere to go, no place to stay.
Don't want to think about it, but I see it every day. Corrupted innocence just
doesn't seem to fade away. Spoiled so young, you know it's bound to last, but
when you're living in the city, you've gotta grow up fast. And it makes me sick,
God, it makes me sick. Don't want to think about it, but I see it every day.
If you want to buy affluence, your soul you'll have to pay. Wasting away the
prime of your life, but it's been done that way for years, so you know it must
be all right. Don't wanna think about it, but I see it every day. With every
sip and every shot, mind and bodies fade away. Friends are all gone, and memories
don't last, but when you've fallen off the wagon, you seem to fall so damn fast.
Just like cellophane, you try to cling so tight to me, but your attempt's in
vain. You've less sincerity than the plastic. Paper in rain. The print appears
so bright to me. The words remain. I hold it to the light, I see right through.
So eager to say, "hello", but you don't know me. You just know what
you see. Pay the price to see the show but you don't own me. Before you knew
would you have felt the same? Just when I'm inspired, you drain the drive right
outta me, and even when I'm tired you push me to perform for you amusement.
Just like raging fire, you burn what's left inside of me and to fulfill your
desire, I'd give you light till I burned out. Just when you start to smile,
I look into your eyes and see your veiled denial to express any real emotion.
Just wait around a while, you'll lose what you once had for me. I'll be out
of style, I'll be discarded with the warmth you once feigned.
I'm not angry, I'm just amused at your quest for attention through your self
abuse. The only response that you get for your pleasis sorely less than sympathy.
What reason is there to be alive? When the word is against you how can you survive?
All your friends are apathetic at best, and your entire life is a total mess.
Give it a fuckin' rest. You can't feel me, feel, I'm scarred so deep. No one
needs me. Could you please leave me alone? I'm sorry to hear that your world's
sinking fast and you've lost your stable ground and I'm sorry to add to your
disappointment, but I won't be brought down. I'm not angry, I'm just amused
at all the dramatics you love to use, but one thing I have noticed that is strange
to me is that you're not content until you're brought down, and you're always
so alone because you can't be found. You're soul is black and you're filled
with hate. How much more can you possible take? Give me a fuckin' break
There's no hope of helping us, we've only just begun. We're youth eternal, nothing
more to become. A thousand lights are burning from both ends. We're proud of
reputations we all own. Together forever. Rejected but never alone. Together
forever. I'd purify the world with one primal scream, but no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself, because no one else will talk to me. It's hard
for me to comprehend, they couldn't understand all the thoughts going through
our heads. With a smile they tore us up, now look what we've become. Finally
we are numb. No need to. No need to feel. I've got a nothingness and that's
all that's real. No need to cut the numbness inside. No need to. No need to
hear. What you've got to say means nothing at all. I've got no distance left
to fall
I'm here today, just like every yesterday. Heavy heat, and sheets stick to my
skin. Can't get away from nothingness. I try to get up, but I have to give in
to the force that is keeping me down. I overcome gravity, I look outside. A
cat cries out, trapped upon a window sill, but is crying's drowned out by my
screaming inside. What will it take? I wonder what it's like exposed outside,
would I be safe? When will it break. Try to look out, I see reflection I just
want to break. Sirens moan. They're forever crying... someone's probably dying.
The sound sticks inside my head. Talk to myself, I'm company, but who is to
say if nothing if said? Two windows stare back at me. Three stories high nothing
is new. I may sit, but someday I'll stand. I'll muster up the will and fire
myself through.
You've seen it all a thousand times, you've heard it all before. You've danced
the steps, you wrote the rhymes. So passé, too many times, but you're
hollow at the core. Two generations past you by. You think there's nothing left.
But look around and you will see what our world has grown to be. We are the
now, not the past. Can't you even try to see the strength with which we've built
ourselves to be. I know that you will never be able to destroy what it's meant
to me. You've never seen the likes of us. We are your novelty. A brand new trend
with mass appeal, don't like the truth, don't like what's real. You're jumping
into something you'll never understand. You think that it's a passing phase.
It's our entire life. You revel in rebellious ways, rebellion that the media
made. When you change your channel, we'll smash your T.V.
You say you want to be friends, start over, try again? Well, things will never
be the way they were back then. Things were never how you wanted, I couldn't
think of you that way. Now, if you take one step closer I will take two steps
away. Maybe you need affection, I'd like to help you but I can't stand when
you're around: fuck you very much. Maybe you need to talk, but you betrayed
my trust. Friends was not good enough? Fuck You Very Much. You can always claim
you're straightedge, go ahead and dye your hair. You won't get more attention
from me, 'cause I will never fucking care. I try to remain secret, shooting
away and hiding out, but you always track me down. Open your eyes and figure
it out. I'm not trying again. I'm sick of seeing you. Don't wanna be your friend.
I wish you'd go away.
You've got something to say, or so you say to me, then you receive a blank stare.
You've got something to say of importance and gosh, that's really good to hear.
I'm proud of you, so proud of you, I'm proud of you, I'm very proud of you.
You've got something S.P. - some to show to me. Well, I have seen it before.
I can't compete, I can't impress you. I guess I'll show you the door.
When it comes the time that you have recognized your line and you realize the
path that you will travel through your life, be sure that what you want is exactly
what you're trying to get, or you'll be speeding toward a cliff without realizing
that... Before you know, the haze makes you slow ignore your future, forget
your past - before you know, cars start to crash. There are so many choices,
the opportunities abound. Just to be sure to keep things straight and be sure
to stand your ground. Let nothing shade your vision, even fight to keep it clear.
Let no one change what's right for you, for when you start to veer cars start
to crash.
Hanging out and lingering around, 'cause you know where I'll be found and I
don't know how you do it. This obsession I must admit has shaken me up a bit.
My solidarity now only comes pairs. I'd like to see you before you see me. I'd
like to see you. I'd like to see you leave. Showered be torrential praise, why
it is I can't explain. Attempts to leave yield no avail. For me I don't know
what's in store. All I want is nothing more. I don't deserve what I get, I've
nothing to return.
Don't care to hear what you heard. I won't believe a single word. Don't care
to hear what you say. I won't believe it anyway. You relay fiction, facts you
avoid. You're just like a fucking tabloid, you can never seem to get your information
straight. Tell me something I don't know. Your information's fucking faux. Don't
you have somewhere to go? Your mouth is quick, your mind is slow. Don't want
to know what you know. I just want you to fucking go. Don't want to know what
you believe. I just wish that you would leave. You try to cajz everyday, I wish
that you would get away. You can never seem to get your information straight.
When you try to hang around, I'd really like to push you down. When you try
to understand, I don't really think that you can.
You keep on sayin' that you want to know me but you never show me your true
self. How can you ever expect someone else to know you when all you're going
to do is just pretend that you're someone else? You keep on sayin' that you
want to show me that you're really different, but your just the same. If you're
really mindless then there is no way that I can win, maybe you're just one of
them, or maybe it's just a game. You lie to yourself and remain alone. I'm not
exactly sure of your motivation. I'm not exactly sure what you're tryin' to
do. All I'm really sure is that you're not too impressive and you're wearin'
a mask that I can't see through. Maybe you're not looking for acceptance, maybe
you're striving for something more. If it's status that you lust then why try
to be one of us? You're someone we'll never trust 'cause we know the score.
I will never want to date you while I can learn to hate you. If you somehow
learn to love me, well, that's just my luck. I would never care if you only
wanted my friendship, but somehow you're disappointed that I'm not a slut. I
don't want to fuck you, so fuck you. I my mind there is no doubt that you've
been in and out of many different backseats, many times before. I can always
see your defeat when I won't leave the front seat. And it seems your disappointed
that I'm not a whore.
Yeah I can see it coming. I've seen it all before. I've seen it once or twice
and now I hear it call to board. This train is moving fast but how long is it
gonna last. I guess that we'll find out as well go in through the out door.
Don't ever let go. Is this the start? Is this the end? New faces ask, "what's
happening?" I bite my tongue and hold my breath and tell them, "the
same old thing." I don't know what's going, on but I don't wanna do it
wrong. Don't wanna contradict myself with all the words I sing.
Who said you could touch me? You don't know I am so, you can not get close to
me and I don't know who you are, so just leave me alone. I know you can't believe
the anxiety you're causing me adn I know you can't believe your fake compassion
I don't need. Get away from me, You're standing too close. Keep your hands off
of me. Keep away from me, Just leave me alone, who said you could touch me anyway?
Don't try to rub my shoulders and don't try to hold my hand. Don't try to give
me a fucking hug. You crawl.
Bowling is my life and it has always been my dream to be a member of the local
bowling team, but I'm not very good. The guys won't accept me, I guess I try
the girls team and lose a part of my anatomy then balls will roll. I think I
want to be... Balls will roll, I think it's time, it's timefor me to be a girl.
It's a very big decision, it's going to change my life. I'll have to make all
new friends, I 'm gonna lose my wife. But that's okay with me. There's something
in my soul. It doesn't matter who's the better man, it the man who gets to bowl.
I 've made my decision , I'm gonna make the change. There will be rolling balls,
I'm gonna play my game. It's gonna be so great. It's gonna be the best, besides,
I've always told myself I look good in a dress. I'm gonna cut'em off, I'm gonna
cut'em off, I'm gonna cut'em off. I'll never have to cough. Now I've made my
change and I've fulfilled my dream. I'm now a member of the women's bowling
team. I hope I throw a strike, 'cause I'll never score again. My first game
is tomorrow, I will go to play and then..
Love Is A Many Splendored Thing
You think you've got the looks, you think you've got the fashion. You thought
you'd have me wanting more, but don't like my reaction. You think you're really
something. You're nothing to me now. You thought you'd keep me coming without
ever thinking how. I hate you. You think you're really special. You think I
think you're best. You think you're really something? You're no better than
the rest. You've got everything you wanted. Don't let yourself be fooled. You
thought that you could play the game, but I just changed the rules.
